R.I.P. Robin Williams

The world lost a genius today. We may never know whether it was his mental illness or addictions that claimed him. Either way I hate to see those conditions/disease take a life.

The truth is, I’m selfish. I want more movies and more stand up. I am not sad for him or truth to tell, for his family. I am sad for me. Selfish as that sounds, I am too far removed from them to feel anything other than empathy that stems from losing folks I cared about to suicide.

In my clinical opinion, suicide is the option chosen by a person who cannot see an end to their suffering. Death seems like a more desirable option than what is being experienced. In my personal opinion, the choice is the most selfish f@cking thing a person can do (outside of euthanasia).

Those of us who understand addiction, and/or paid close attention to his stand up are not shocked that this happened. Comedy always contains a certain amount of truth. Examine that truth closely and you will find a certain amount of pain. Perhaps Williams had more than most. Perhaps his Bi Polar Disorder was unmedicated or the depression it bestowed was too great.

Instead of resenting his departure I will consider all that he gave us and be grateful. Goodwill Hunting remains his most important work in my eyes. I appreciate the art, even if I resent the artist for leaving when I wanted more.

But hell, that’s what performers do, right? Leave you wanting more.

Jim LaPierre

About Jim LaPierre

Jim LaPierre LCSW CCS is the Executive Director of Higher Ground Services in Brewer, Maine. He is a Recovery Ally, mental health therapist and addictions counselor. He specializes in facilitating recovery (whether from addiction, trauma, depression, anxiety, or past abuse) overcome obstacles, and improve their quality of life. Jim offers a limited amount of online therapy to those with very flexible schedules.