Overcoming Self Abuse

Triggers & Truth

I don’t understand why I am this way.
Do you want to know?
Yes. No. I don’t know.
I think so.
Tell me.

No one in your life today
abuses you
and without that
you don’t know how to be
so you abuse you.
Please consider,
who you honor by doing so.

Whoever they are, they’re wrong.
The truth about you is beautiful.

The only ugliness within you
are the memories
and the buried feelings:
violation,
betrayal,
pain.

Your shame does not belong to you.
It was not your fault.
I will speak this as many times as it takes
Please believe me
I was lied to too.

Please know that regardless
of how your skin feels,
you are clean!
Even if your body responded
It was only doing something natural
In the midst of the unspeakable

And yet… we must speak of these things.

We know too well that
Bruises fade and
bones heal.
The hateful words linger
I’m GLAD you were born
You’re a fucking piece of …
Gold
Platinum
Diamonds .

It is your soul that needs to be purged
not your stomach, not your blood.
The stories cannot be forgotten
We remain torn until
we achieve resolution
and forgiveness
of ourselves.

Forgiving them
is optional
It wasn’t your fault.

I see you
in the full light of day
through honest eyes
and so I tell you
even though
I am not the person
you always wanted
to right the wrongs

Please understand,
kindred spirits
connect because
we need each other
no one
loves
like we do.

You’re one of us.
Welcome home. .

Jim LaPierre

About Jim LaPierre

Jim LaPierre LCSW CCS is the Executive Director of Higher Ground Services in Brewer, Maine. He is a Recovery Ally, mental health therapist and addictions counselor. He specializes in facilitating recovery (whether from addiction, trauma, depression, anxiety, or past abuse) overcome obstacles, and improve their quality of life. Jim offers a limited amount of online therapy to those with very flexible schedules.